Well, things have slowed down quite a bit lately and I haven't been in the studio in over a month! I hate that! Anyway, in my down time, from the studio and acting classes, I have been developing and writing a song of my own. No help from anyone as of yet. I have been plunking chords out on my keyboard at home, jamming them into my brain so I won't forget them. (I never learned to score music.) I know when Joel gets a freaking hold of it I am going to have to pull in the reigns because this one is very personal and MINE...ALL MINE...inspired by no one but my own singular thoughts. This new song has a pretty chord progression that I just don't want to mess with...too much. Okay, I might give in to the dark side a little...but not so much as to ruin the integrity of the song.

About the song: When I have too much time on my hands, I think too much which is what led to this new one. It's more of a ballad (sort of) but it's not about love or anything like that. It is titled, "On the Inside Outside Edge". Did you ever feel like you were standing just inside a door, in-between the screen door and the wood door, or on the edge of a diving board, not able to jump into the pool, but not able to climb off onto the ground or being in a crowd of people, in the middle, talking to no one while everyone else around you is engaged in deep conversation? Sometimes, that's how I feel about life in general. Never QUITE being in or out...in anything...you know, round peg, square hole...or square peg with rounded edges...always on the very edge of something but never quite reaching that, well, something. That's me.

I have always been such a different individual that I am always questioning my position in this life...where I belong, what am I good at, am I good enough, do I fit in...something I think most artists go through or think themselves. Nothing new here. However, I don't let it get me so down that I can't function. In fact, I think I am most productive artistically when I am in one of my "moods"...or "down" times. It is sort of a therapy, as opposed to drinking vast amounts of alcohol to escape, resulting in a daily dose of tums because of the heartburn that it caused which was just not worth it. 

I am able to purge negative thoughts quite easily onto paper and into music. I am lucky that way...and the end result is always satisfying unlike alcohol which dulls the senses...I can't use drugs as an example, because I have never experimented on that level. But many people have and we know where that always leads...

Anyway, I am going into the studio this fine beautiful afternoon to record parts of Dave T's song "Home" in Gaelic...(yikes), and work on my song...tweaking...enhancing...etc. So, I will leave you with a TGIF! Have a great weekend all! Cherish the Moments!